Have you? What were you thinking at that moment? 

REGRETS AND APOLOGY

I know all of us became hypercritical even once in our lives. Judging other people is as easy as ABC. Of course, it's wrong. I want to apologize for I became judgemental to any of you who felt the same as how I am feeling right now for I used to say that what you experienced about being incomplete is too naive to feel and yet, here I am. 

How many of you guys have also regretted saying the things that you've said before? Frustrating, isn't it? 

I was too proud of myself that I can always hold myself up before I could even fall. I am not the best and yes, I fell down. To be honest, I don't even know if it's right to rant these things to all of you and if it's fine to publish these kinds of thoughts. 

Forgive me, readers. For now, this is my only avenue to speak up. I've actually written almost three paragraphs already but the verge of my emotion is not even close to the climax of this writing.

 

I just want to keep writing. 

EXPECTATION VS. REALITY 

We always say these words when we feel disappointed at something we expected to reach our expectations but did not. I think I've been in this situation thousand times but I kept ignoring the facts because I, (then again),  used to believe that things might get better in the future. I ignored the signs and the other facts that might not lead to this point if I only have just listened to myself before. But yes, I was too naive. 

Change is constant, that's what I always said before. But it turned me in the wrong direction, not where I wanted that change to take place. It was in another way. Are you getting my thoughts? To give you an idea,  what I can only say is that my life is just becoming colorless nowadays and I cannot even paint a picture in my mind of how my future self would be. With whom, with what, or maybe without?

WORRIES

Family - We always wish to have a happy one. Sense of belongingness is what we always seek that's why family is very important to us. I personally struggled to have one and as one of the eldest, I worked hard to achieve what we are having now. But there is always just a moment in my life where I feel all alone and worried about how would I turn to be in the next few years. Would I live alone or would they stand by me forever? 

Are we in the same boat?  Have you ever thought this way before? Or maybe I'm just being paranoid? 

I don't know!

Maybe I am not just going to be so specific about what has actually happened to me. I don't know where this life could lead me to. But If ever I would be successful in overcoming this adversity, I will definitely write again and will proudly say, "Hey! it's finished!". Of course, not my life, huh! By then, I can finally tell you the hows of my emotional success so you can get an idea of how to get through this kind of situation as well. 

STRIDE

I know this is a long way to go and you as well went through a long journey too, before you could even say "okay I'm good now". I believe I would have to realize the process by myself, but I would be happier to hear from you too. 

I want to leave this article with a little request from you. I know it could also be an achievement for you to share your stories of success and experiences. So feel free to write your hows in overcoming your life adversities when you were on the verge of unclear thoughts and feeling pointless about your lives. 

Let's hear each other! Feel free to share your stories down there!